… you and we talked about the misogyny of the Cool Girl Trope, and then I was the Cool Girl for you. We were not dating and I could have done it like this forever, but every time you stopped showing up I was afraid to call, because when you needed space it meant you needed to pretend I was no longer a person you knew, and this was okay because we were not dating. We were not dating and I could only be cool when it felt like this love wasn’t going anywhere. We were not dating and if I could just be cool, then you wouldn’t tell stories later about how I was crazy.